Today is Monday, July 16th. I got on the scale this morning and I had a gain. It was a large gain, I think this was what I needed to kick myself back into losing weight. Right now I'm depressed. I always said as long as I don't gain back the weight I've lost so far then I'm fine.
My food goals for this week is to eat more fruits and veggies, drink lots of water and NO fast food. I'm going to try my hardest to eat more home cooked meals and have lunch at the salad bar. There are lots of healthy options at the salad bars around the area where I work so I don't have any excuse as to why I can't eat healthy.
My workout goals for this week is to workout at least 3 times. Today I'm going to do the Turbo Jam 30 minute workout because I don't think I can handle more than that.
This morning I weighted in at 262, so I'm back in the 260's when just about 2 months ago I was in the 240's.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Today is Tuesday, July 10th and I've done a lot of walking in the past 3 days. On Saturday I walked over 10 miles. Yesterday and the day before I walked over 5 miles. I've started walking from where I live to the subway and I've cut my time from 15 minutes to 10 mins. It's about 1/4 mile from where I live to the subway. If only I could dedicate myself to working out on a daily basis they way I'm dedicated to walking.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Let's try this again
Today is Monday, July 9th and I'm experiencing deja vu. I've been here before and every other time the outcome has been the same. I start out at full speed and I'm all into it. Then something happens in my life and I have to push my goals to the side to take care of someone else (mainly my son). I just wish I could put me first and not worry about anyone else. I also wish I could stick with something longer than 30 days.
I try to set goals but I never achieve them. My life is always being turned upside down by something that I have not control over. Right now I'm in the process of looking for a new job because my current job is causing me stress. It's sending me into a sad depression and so I've decided to put all my effort into find a new job.
I'm also dealing with my son's current situation. He will be incarcerated for the next 3 1/2 years, he goes before the parol board in 2015. This situation has taught me to never say never. My son is very stubborn and likes to learn things the hard way. He doesn't realize that his actions not only hurt him but they hurt the people closest to him, but that's a whole other post. With all these stresses in my life it's no wonder I can't stay on track.
So, I'm trying this again. I refuse to give up, even thought there are days when I say I'm done. On those days I eat what ever I want and don't regret it. The only plus is that I haven't gained back the weight that I have lost so far. I've also started to walk more. The other day I walked a total of 10 miles. It was not from a continuous walk.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Denial
When I look in the mirror I don't see what everyone else sees. I don't realize how fat I really am. I think I have chosen to see the over weight girl that I use to be or the woman that I was after having my children. I'm in denial. Tonight I going to take a few full length photos and post the here. Maybe this will snap me out of the delusional image I see of myself.
Why can't I get this weight thing under control. I want to wake up and be a normal size. Not a skinny twig but just a normal size. I want to fit into fashionable clothes, I'm tired of wear jeans, a t-shirt and sneakers. Tonight I was sitting across from a woman on the train and I can see how much the extra pounds she is carrying is hurting her physically. Mentally she doesn't get it (just like me). She pulled out a food container, she examine's the container and then puts it away. I could just imagine what was going through her mind at the site of the container. Her feet and ankles are so swollen that's why I'm thinking about my denial. There is probably something very high calorie and high sodium in that container. Even though her ankles and feet are swollen and she's in pain she will still eat what's in that container when she gets home. This thought made me so sad for her and myself.
I got off the train and headed for McDonald's even after what I just saw and thought. It's about 2 hours later and I'm now sitting here trying to figure out what will it take for me to get my eating habits under control. What will it take for me to make healthy choices. I keep using my stress as an excuse but it's a lame ass excuse. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, get up off my ass and get moving. I need to start making better choices and get this damn weight off of me. I know what to do to lose the weight but I just don't want to do these things.
Why can't I get this weight thing under control. I want to wake up and be a normal size. Not a skinny twig but just a normal size. I want to fit into fashionable clothes, I'm tired of wear jeans, a t-shirt and sneakers. Tonight I was sitting across from a woman on the train and I can see how much the extra pounds she is carrying is hurting her physically. Mentally she doesn't get it (just like me). She pulled out a food container, she examine's the container and then puts it away. I could just imagine what was going through her mind at the site of the container. Her feet and ankles are so swollen that's why I'm thinking about my denial. There is probably something very high calorie and high sodium in that container. Even though her ankles and feet are swollen and she's in pain she will still eat what's in that container when she gets home. This thought made me so sad for her and myself.
I got off the train and headed for McDonald's even after what I just saw and thought. It's about 2 hours later and I'm now sitting here trying to figure out what will it take for me to get my eating habits under control. What will it take for me to make healthy choices. I keep using my stress as an excuse but it's a lame ass excuse. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, get up off my ass and get moving. I need to start making better choices and get this damn weight off of me. I know what to do to lose the weight but I just don't want to do these things.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Days 32 - 36
I've been gone for a while. I hate the weekend sometimes. I love the fact that I don't have to go to work but because I'm single there isn't much to do.
I'm dealing with a lot these day and I'm praying that it will get better soon. Today I started tracking my food via my fitness pal. This has worked for me in the past and I think it's time for me to go back to it. My portion size is not the problem it's the things that I'm eating. Over the weekend I had pancakes from mcdee's with sausage, general tso's chicken with pork fried rice, fried wontons and fried chicken wings.
I just read an article that says you have to be mentally healthy before you can become physically healthy. If you don't work on your mind you will fail at working on your weight. I believe that. I have so many things going on in my life right now that are making me depressed. I cannot control these things because they are not things that are happening to me, they are things that are happening to someone I love dearly. It's happening to one of my children. I feel I will not get back on my weight loss journey and be successful at it until I have dealt with and come to terms with this situation. I don't know how to come to terms with the situation and I don't how to deal with it. I'm in the process of finding a therapist to help me handle this situation.
I'm going to continue to work on my weight, I don't plan on gaining back the weight that I have lost so far. I don't plan on going backwards, I only plan on going forward.
I'm dealing with a lot these day and I'm praying that it will get better soon. Today I started tracking my food via my fitness pal. This has worked for me in the past and I think it's time for me to go back to it. My portion size is not the problem it's the things that I'm eating. Over the weekend I had pancakes from mcdee's with sausage, general tso's chicken with pork fried rice, fried wontons and fried chicken wings.
I just read an article that says you have to be mentally healthy before you can become physically healthy. If you don't work on your mind you will fail at working on your weight. I believe that. I have so many things going on in my life right now that are making me depressed. I cannot control these things because they are not things that are happening to me, they are things that are happening to someone I love dearly. It's happening to one of my children. I feel I will not get back on my weight loss journey and be successful at it until I have dealt with and come to terms with this situation. I don't know how to come to terms with the situation and I don't how to deal with it. I'm in the process of finding a therapist to help me handle this situation.
I'm going to continue to work on my weight, I don't plan on gaining back the weight that I have lost so far. I don't plan on going backwards, I only plan on going forward.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Day 31 and 32
I'm suppose publish a post everyday but I'm failing at it. When I started this weight loss journey I never set a goal and I had not idea why I wanted to do this. I was just tired of being fat and buying clothes in the plus size department. I think that is the main reason why I keep failing at it. My reason for losing weight has to be more than just for superficial reasons. I have to make a commitment to get healthy. I don't have any health problem such as high blood pressure, diabetes or high cholesterol etc. I don't want to develop any health problems as I get older so I need to start doing something now.
Day 32
Wow, it's been more than 30 days since I started back on my weight loss journey. I did not do well last week. I haven't worked out for a while and I'm not eating healthy. I ate so much fried foods this past week that I gained back all the weight I have lost this year. I am back in the 250's.
5/29/12
Breakfast
2 strips of bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 whole wheat bagel
16 oz cup of ice coffee with 4 packets of splenda and 1 tbsp of half and half
Lunch
3 oz of grilled chicken
3 cups of salad green (spring salad mix)
1 tsp of olive oil
1 oz fried fish
1/4 cup of wild rice with beans, cranberries and nuts
sugar free jello cup with whipped cream
5/29/12
Breakfast
2 strips of bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 whole wheat bagel
16 oz cup of ice coffee with 4 packets of splenda and 1 tbsp of half and half
Lunch
3 oz of grilled chicken
3 cups of salad green (spring salad mix)
1 tsp of olive oil
1 oz fried fish
1/4 cup of wild rice with beans, cranberries and nuts
sugar free jello cup with whipped cream
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Day 31
5/28/12
I spent the holiday doing laundry. That's fine because I spent most of the weekend just relaxing and getting my mind right.
Breakfast:
8 oz of green machine
1 banana
lunch
10 fried wonton
12 oz of pepsi
snack
2 tbsp of peanut butter and greek yogurt mix with 2 strawberries
Dinner
1 cup of brown rice
1 cup of beef and turkey chili with beans
1 cup of broccoli
1 tsp of reduce fat cheese
Ate dinner so early that I had to eat something after I went for 2.5 mile walk.
10 baked shrimp with 1/4 cup of broccoli and red potatoes
3 sugar free peanut butter cups
Ate dinner so early that I had to eat something after I went for 2.5 mile walk.
10 baked shrimp with 1/4 cup of broccoli and red potatoes
3 sugar free peanut butter cups
Monday, May 28, 2012
Day 30
5/27/12
It's Sunday and tomorrow is a holiday so no work. I'm excited about that. Tomorrow is the day I start anew with my weight loss journey. I plan to workout everyday this week, even if it's just going for a walk. Walking 3 miles is more than enough exercise for a day.
I'm not even going to say what I ate today because it was out of control.
It's Sunday and tomorrow is a holiday so no work. I'm excited about that. Tomorrow is the day I start anew with my weight loss journey. I plan to workout everyday this week, even if it's just going for a walk. Walking 3 miles is more than enough exercise for a day.
I'm not even going to say what I ate today because it was out of control.
Day 29
5/26/12
It's official, spring has arrived in NYC. It is hot and humid today, but I'm not complaining. The rain was bringing me down and making me depressed. Emotionally I'm having a good day today but nutritionally I'm having a bad day.
I ate 3 pastelitos for breakfast. A pastelitos is a pastry type thing that is stuffed with either cheese, meat or chicken and then deep fried until it's golden, yum. I had 2 cheese and 1 beef with a large ice coffee from dunkin donuts with 4 packets of splenda. For lunch I had french fries with 10 fried shrimp and 1 serving of banana pudding that I bought from Magnolia bakery.
It's official, spring has arrived in NYC. It is hot and humid today, but I'm not complaining. The rain was bringing me down and making me depressed. Emotionally I'm having a good day today but nutritionally I'm having a bad day.
I ate 3 pastelitos for breakfast. A pastelitos is a pastry type thing that is stuffed with either cheese, meat or chicken and then deep fried until it's golden, yum. I had 2 cheese and 1 beef with a large ice coffee from dunkin donuts with 4 packets of splenda. For lunch I had french fries with 10 fried shrimp and 1 serving of banana pudding that I bought from Magnolia bakery.
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Day 28
Today I feel so stressed and depressed. Can you feel both these things at the same time? Even though I only have to work 3.5 hours today it seems like a long time. I just want to go home and hide under my covers.
I did not track my food today. Taking the weekend off and starting new on Monday. Hopefully I will have my mind right by Monday.
I did not track my food today. Taking the weekend off and starting new on Monday. Hopefully I will have my mind right by Monday.
Friday, May 25, 2012
Day 27
I didn't work out today because I realize I'm depressed. I cried for 1 hour straight, I couldn't stop. Tomorrow is only have to work until 12:30 pm
5/24/12
Breakfast
1 Whole grain bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz coffee with 3 tsp of raw sugar and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch
2 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
3 oz of grilled chicken
1/4 cup of wild rice mixed with beans
1 taco with cheese and jalapeno pepper
1 oz of fried fish
Snack
3 golden oreo cakesters (33 gm of sugar)
Dinner
3/4 lbs of baked shrimp
3.5 servings of swedish fish
late night snack
1 serving of pop chips parmesan cheese flavor
1 sugar free peanut butter cup
5/24/12
Breakfast
1 Whole grain bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz coffee with 3 tsp of raw sugar and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch
2 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
3 oz of grilled chicken
1/4 cup of wild rice mixed with beans
1 taco with cheese and jalapeno pepper
1 oz of fried fish
Snack
3 golden oreo cakesters (33 gm of sugar)
Dinner
3/4 lbs of baked shrimp
3.5 servings of swedish fish
late night snack
1 serving of pop chips parmesan cheese flavor
1 sugar free peanut butter cup
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Day 26
5/23/12
Breakfast
1 whole wheat bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz coffee with 3 teaspoons of raw sugar, 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch
3 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
1 tbsp of olive oil
3 oz of grilled chicken
1 taco with meat and bean mixed with cheese and jalapeno peppers
1 jello-o sugar free pudding
Snack
Fat free strawberry banana yogurt
1/4 cup of granola
Dinner
1 can of boneless and skinless sardines in olive oil
17 water crackers
3 servings of swedish fish
Breakfast
1 whole wheat bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz coffee with 3 teaspoons of raw sugar, 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch
3 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
1 tbsp of olive oil
3 oz of grilled chicken
1 taco with meat and bean mixed with cheese and jalapeno peppers
1 jello-o sugar free pudding
Snack
Fat free strawberry banana yogurt
1/4 cup of granola
Dinner
1 can of boneless and skinless sardines in olive oil
17 water crackers
3 servings of swedish fish
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Day 25
Someone posted a video today regarding people who say they are happy being overweight. Yesterday I posted about trying to accept the fact that I will never lose this weight. You know, after seeing that video, it reminded me why I started this weight loss journey in the first place. I want to be able to go into any store any buy clothes. Right now I am subjected to plus size stores only or the largest size in old navy and sometimes that size is too tight.
I'm not going to weight myself for 1 week, so my next weigh in will be Monday, 5/28. I think I'm discouraging myself by weighing so often. I weigh every day. Maybe if I try not to focus so much on losing the weight and just doing what I know I need to do, then the weight will come off.
5/22/12
Breakfast
2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 whole wheat bagel
12 oz of coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer with 2 packets of splenda
Lunch
3 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
1 tbsp of olive oil
3 oz of grilled chicken
1.5 oz of baked salmon
1/4 cup of wild rice mix with veggies
Snack
1 jolly time 100 calorie healthy popcorn
1 package of sugar wafers (2.5 servings, 36 grams of sugar)
Dinner
1 slice of pizza
5 garlic knots
1 serving of swedish fish
I'm feeling depressed and I'm not sure why. I'll have to figure it out. This happens to me a lot. I'm carb overloading because I'm stressing. I need to do better!
I'm not going to weight myself for 1 week, so my next weigh in will be Monday, 5/28. I think I'm discouraging myself by weighing so often. I weigh every day. Maybe if I try not to focus so much on losing the weight and just doing what I know I need to do, then the weight will come off.
5/22/12
Breakfast
2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 whole wheat bagel
12 oz of coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer with 2 packets of splenda
Lunch
3 cups of salad greens (spring salad mix)
1 tbsp of olive oil
3 oz of grilled chicken
1.5 oz of baked salmon
1/4 cup of wild rice mix with veggies
Snack
1 jolly time 100 calorie healthy popcorn
1 package of sugar wafers (2.5 servings, 36 grams of sugar)
Dinner
1 slice of pizza
5 garlic knots
1 serving of swedish fish
I'm feeling depressed and I'm not sure why. I'll have to figure it out. This happens to me a lot. I'm carb overloading because I'm stressing. I need to do better!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Day 22, 23 & 24
I did not write down what I ate all weekend long. I was not very good with my eating. I had pizza, an apple fritter and candy. Yeah I'm my own worst enemy, but that's alright because the only person I'm hurting is me. I'm not doing to good on this journey right now. I'm feeling a little sorry for myself because I can't control my eating. Also, I'm not trying very hard to control it.
5/21/12
Breakfast
1 egg white omelette with mushrooms, peppers and spinach, 2 strips of bacon, 3 pieces of home fries and 3 pieces of imitation crab meat
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer with 2 packet of Splenda
Lunch
Lamb meat over basmati rice with vegetables, salad greens with vegetables, greek white sauce
1 jell-o sugar free pudding cup
Snack
1 apricot
Dinner
1 slice of pizza
2 servings of swedish fish
Something needs to give I either have to learn to accept the fact that I will never be at a normal weight or stop feeling sorry for myself and get on the ball.
5/21/12
Breakfast
1 egg white omelette with mushrooms, peppers and spinach, 2 strips of bacon, 3 pieces of home fries and 3 pieces of imitation crab meat
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer with 2 packet of Splenda
Lunch
Lamb meat over basmati rice with vegetables, salad greens with vegetables, greek white sauce
1 jell-o sugar free pudding cup
Snack
1 apricot
Dinner
1 slice of pizza
2 servings of swedish fish
Something needs to give I either have to learn to accept the fact that I will never be at a normal weight or stop feeling sorry for myself and get on the ball.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Day 21
It's day 21 and I have not lost a lb. I have gained since starting back writing this blog. Time of the month came and I have not lost the weight I gained during that time. My body has a hard time letting go of the bloating that I get during the time of the month. I was very careful with my food intake but I was not watching my sodium and that could be the reason why I gain every month.
Breakfast
1 honey wheat bagel, 1 tbsp. of fat free cream cheese, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz of coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Lunch
Mixed salad greens
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
3 fried calamari rings
1 fried wingette
1 fried shrimp
Snack
1/2 medium banana
1 Archer Farms strawberry cheesecake fat free yogurt
Dinner
really didn't have dinner because I went to pick up a few items from Target for my son. I had a bag of beef jerky from Target. Also, had a piece of pizza and a granola bar (sweet & salty with yogurt).
Breakfast
1 honey wheat bagel, 1 tbsp. of fat free cream cheese, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon
12 oz of coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Lunch
Mixed salad greens
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
3 fried calamari rings
1 fried wingette
1 fried shrimp
Snack
1/2 medium banana
1 Archer Farms strawberry cheesecake fat free yogurt
Dinner
really didn't have dinner because I went to pick up a few items from Target for my son. I had a bag of beef jerky from Target. Also, had a piece of pizza and a granola bar (sweet & salty with yogurt).
Friday, May 18, 2012
Day 20, I think?
Not sure what day I'm on but I'm going to start putting the date somewhere in my post. This would make it easier when I go back to read them.
5/17/12
Breakfast
1 whole wheat bagel, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 scrambled egg
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp. sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Lunch
2.5 cups of salad
1/4 cup of wild rice with beans and veggies
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
1 fried wingette
.5 oz of beef
1.5 oz of baked turkey breast
1 Jell-o sugar free pudding cup
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Dinner
1/2 baked shrimps
4 oz baked salmon
Snack
1 oz of sweet potato chips
1 oz of pop corners
1 skinny cow chocolate clusters
I really need to eat something, such as a yogurt, around 4 pm. I couldn't get up the strength to workout because I was hungry when I got home after work. The days that I had something to eat before I got home I was able to workout.
I also need to cut back on the amount of sodium I'm having.
5/17/12
Breakfast
1 whole wheat bagel, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 scrambled egg
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp. sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Lunch
2.5 cups of salad
1/4 cup of wild rice with beans and veggies
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
1 fried wingette
.5 oz of beef
1.5 oz of baked turkey breast
1 Jell-o sugar free pudding cup
Snack
1/2 medium banana
Dinner
1/2 baked shrimps
4 oz baked salmon
Snack
1 oz of sweet potato chips
1 oz of pop corners
1 skinny cow chocolate clusters
I really need to eat something, such as a yogurt, around 4 pm. I couldn't get up the strength to workout because I was hungry when I got home after work. The days that I had something to eat before I got home I was able to workout.
I also need to cut back on the amount of sodium I'm having.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
It's a new day
Breakfast
1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 whole wheat bagel
12 oz coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
Half a medium banana
lunch
3 oz of steamed lobster tail
2 oz of grilled chicken
1.5 oz of baked salmon
1.5 oz of taco meat with cheese
7 steamed shrimp (medium)
2 oz of fettuccine
2 cups of salad with olive oil
1 vegetable tempura
1 Jell-o whipped caramel jello
Snack
Archer Farms fat free yogurt (banana cream pie)
1/2 medium banana
Dinner
1/2 serving of sweet potato chips
1/4 cup of roasted and salted peanuts
6 baked shrimp
Workout
Turbo Jam cardio party remix
1 scrambled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 whole wheat bagel
12 oz coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Snack
Half a medium banana
lunch
3 oz of steamed lobster tail
2 oz of grilled chicken
1.5 oz of baked salmon
1.5 oz of taco meat with cheese
7 steamed shrimp (medium)
2 oz of fettuccine
2 cups of salad with olive oil
1 vegetable tempura
1 Jell-o whipped caramel jello
Snack
Archer Farms fat free yogurt (banana cream pie)
1/2 medium banana
Dinner
1/2 serving of sweet potato chips
1/4 cup of roasted and salted peanuts
6 baked shrimp
Workout
Turbo Jam cardio party remix
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Lost track of the days
Today is Tuesday, May 15th. I have not made a post in a few days because I was feeling a little down and didn't have anything I wanted to say in this blog. I was sorting out some feelings and getting myself out of the funk I was in.
I need to put more effort into updating my resume. I'm so fed up with having to deal with my boss. She tries to make everyone feel so stupid and this makes me so angry. My attitude is fuck it when it comes to my work. I'm starting to do things that will cause me to lose my job but I really don't care and I know I should. I need to put more effort into updating my resume and starting a serious job search. I can't afford to lose my job right now.
Breakfast:
1 hard boiled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 cup of steamed broccoli
12 oz coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Lunch
2.5 cups of salad
1.5 oz of salmon
2 oz of grilled chicken
1/3 cup of wild rice with beans and dried cranberries
1 fried wingette
1 steamed veggie dumpling
1 sugar free jello pudding (dulce de leche flavor)
Snack
Archer Farms fat free banana cream pie yogurt
1/4 cup of granola
Dinner
1 cup of whole grain pasta
1 cup of spinach
3.5 oz baked chicken breast
1/4 cup of Alfredo sauce
Snack
1/4 cup of roasted and salted peanuts
1 medium banana
Skinny Cow ice cream bar
5 sugar free reese's peanut butter cups
Workout:
Turbo Fire HIIT 20
I need to put more effort into updating my resume. I'm so fed up with having to deal with my boss. She tries to make everyone feel so stupid and this makes me so angry. My attitude is fuck it when it comes to my work. I'm starting to do things that will cause me to lose my job but I really don't care and I know I should. I need to put more effort into updating my resume and starting a serious job search. I can't afford to lose my job right now.
Breakfast:
1 hard boiled egg, 2 strips of maple turkey bacon, 1 cup of steamed broccoli
12 oz coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packets of splenda
Lunch
2.5 cups of salad
1.5 oz of salmon
2 oz of grilled chicken
1/3 cup of wild rice with beans and dried cranberries
1 fried wingette
1 steamed veggie dumpling
1 sugar free jello pudding (dulce de leche flavor)
Snack
Archer Farms fat free banana cream pie yogurt
1/4 cup of granola
Dinner
1 cup of whole grain pasta
1 cup of spinach
3.5 oz baked chicken breast
1/4 cup of Alfredo sauce
Snack
1/4 cup of roasted and salted peanuts
1 medium banana
Skinny Cow ice cream bar
5 sugar free reese's peanut butter cups
Workout:
Turbo Fire HIIT 20
Day 17
Breakfast 9:00 am
Whole Wheat bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 3 strips of bacon
coffee with 2 packet of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch 1:00 pm
2 cups of yellow basmati rice
1 cup of grilled chicken
1 cup of grilled lamb meat
1 cup of salad with tomato, black olives and corn
2 tbsp of white sauce
1/2 cup of frozen yogurt (white chocolate macadamia)
1 tbsp of oreos
Snack 3:30 pm
1.5 cups of grapes
Don't know what I had for dinner because I forgot to come back and update this post after work.
Whole Wheat bagel, 1 scrambled egg, 3 strips of bacon
coffee with 2 packet of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch 1:00 pm
2 cups of yellow basmati rice
1 cup of grilled chicken
1 cup of grilled lamb meat
1 cup of salad with tomato, black olives and corn
2 tbsp of white sauce
1/2 cup of frozen yogurt (white chocolate macadamia)
1 tbsp of oreos
Snack 3:30 pm
1.5 cups of grapes
Don't know what I had for dinner because I forgot to come back and update this post after work.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Day 15 & 16
I did not post yesterday because I was dealing with too many things to write a blog post.
Breakfast
1 glazed donut
12 oz coffee with 2 packets of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch:
Med. french fries, spicy chicken sandwich, 4 piece nuggets (from McDonalds)
Dinner:
4 fried chicken wings with hot sauce, 1 cup of pork fried rice, 5 fried wontons with hot sauce
Snack:
1 serving of hot air buttered popcorn
Today is a different day so I'm putting yesterday out of the my mind. I ate bad yesterday because I wanted to. I was feeling a little sorry for myself and the situations that are going on in my life right now. I hate not being able to control things that are occurring in my life.
Breakfast 9:00 am
vegetable egg white omelette, 2.5 strips of bacon, 1/4 cup of home fries
12 oz coffee with 2 packets of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Snack
1 pack of Skinny Cow chocolate cluster
1 peanut butter chocolate bear
1 apple
Lunch: 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad with olive oil dressing
4 fried calamari rings
2 fried wingettes
1 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
Snack 4:00 pm
1 bosc pear
1 bag of Jolly time 100 calorie kettle corn popcorn
1 raisin spice bun
Dinner 7:30 pm
2 oz of baked salmon
7 baked shrimp
1 cup of baked broccoli
Workout
Turbo Fire HIIT 20
Breakfast
1 glazed donut
12 oz coffee with 2 packets of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Lunch:
Med. french fries, spicy chicken sandwich, 4 piece nuggets (from McDonalds)
Dinner:
4 fried chicken wings with hot sauce, 1 cup of pork fried rice, 5 fried wontons with hot sauce
Snack:
1 serving of hot air buttered popcorn
Today is a different day so I'm putting yesterday out of the my mind. I ate bad yesterday because I wanted to. I was feeling a little sorry for myself and the situations that are going on in my life right now. I hate not being able to control things that are occurring in my life.
Breakfast 9:00 am
vegetable egg white omelette, 2.5 strips of bacon, 1/4 cup of home fries
12 oz coffee with 2 packets of Splenda and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Snack
1 pack of Skinny Cow chocolate cluster
1 peanut butter chocolate bear
1 apple
Lunch: 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad with olive oil dressing
4 fried calamari rings
2 fried wingettes
1 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
Snack 4:00 pm
1 bosc pear
1 bag of Jolly time 100 calorie kettle corn popcorn
1 raisin spice bun
Dinner 7:30 pm
2 oz of baked salmon
7 baked shrimp
1 cup of baked broccoli
Workout
Turbo Fire HIIT 20
Monday, May 7, 2012
Day 14
The weekend is over. I went to the DMV this morning and I was surprise that I was in and out of there. The to get a number was a bit long, I waited about 20 minutes, but my number was called right away. I called my boss to say I was running late and when I got to work she took the day off.
I didn't work out this weekend, but I'm not falling back into my old habits. I felt a little nauseous Friday night because I tried to work out after having dinner about 1 hour before. I'll never do that again, I need to workout before I eat.
Breakfast 9:30 am
1 whole wheat bagel
1 scrambled egg
3 strips of bacon
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer and 2 packets of Splenda
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad greens with olive oil dressing
1/2 cup of bean salad with wild rice
4 fried calamari rings
1 cup of frozen yogurt (vanilla and mint chocolate chip)
Snack: 4:00 pm
Chobani Yogurt with granola
Dinner 7:30 pm
Lean Cuisine Tortilla Crusted Fish
1 oz Utz Sweet Potato chips
Workout:
Turbo Fire 45
I was doing some soul searching over the weekend because of a video I watched on youtube. I think I sabotage my weight loss because I'm afraid of the attention it will bring. I hate negative attention, it cause me to cuss people out, yeah like literally tear them a new one. I know that negative comments are a fact of life but I have a hard time accepting that fact. I love me, and I really don't care what other people think about me, as long as they keep their opinions to themselves. I want to be a normal size but I don't want the attention that comes with it. People asking you if you lost weight and waiting to see how long it's going to take for you to gain it back. I need to work on getting over this fear so I can stop sabotaging my weight loss goals.
I didn't work out this weekend, but I'm not falling back into my old habits. I felt a little nauseous Friday night because I tried to work out after having dinner about 1 hour before. I'll never do that again, I need to workout before I eat.
Breakfast 9:30 am
1 whole wheat bagel
1 scrambled egg
3 strips of bacon
12 oz coffee with 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer and 2 packets of Splenda
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad greens with olive oil dressing
1/2 cup of bean salad with wild rice
4 fried calamari rings
1 cup of frozen yogurt (vanilla and mint chocolate chip)
Snack: 4:00 pm
Chobani Yogurt with granola
Dinner 7:30 pm
Lean Cuisine Tortilla Crusted Fish
1 oz Utz Sweet Potato chips
Workout:
Turbo Fire 45
I was doing some soul searching over the weekend because of a video I watched on youtube. I think I sabotage my weight loss because I'm afraid of the attention it will bring. I hate negative attention, it cause me to cuss people out, yeah like literally tear them a new one. I know that negative comments are a fact of life but I have a hard time accepting that fact. I love me, and I really don't care what other people think about me, as long as they keep their opinions to themselves. I want to be a normal size but I don't want the attention that comes with it. People asking you if you lost weight and waiting to see how long it's going to take for you to gain it back. I need to work on getting over this fear so I can stop sabotaging my weight loss goals.
Day 12 and 13 - It's the weekend
I woke up this morning and I'm still 247 which is a good thing. The weekend is here and hopefully I can control my eating.
I went to the storage place Saturday morning. My storage unit is located above another unit so I have to climb a ladder to get my things in and out of the unit. I got a really workout moving thing around to get the shelving unit out. I also walked about a quarter mile pushing a shopping cart up hill to get home. I then put the unit together.
I tried to workout last night about 1 hour after I ate dinner. That was a bad idea because half way through the workout I started to feel nauseous. Lesson learned, I cannot workout for at least 2-3 hours after a big meal.
Breakfast on Saturday & Sunday
1 1/2 home made waffles
4 strip of maple turkey bacon
coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packet of Splenda
Lunch:
Saturday
2 oz of canned chicken breast with olive oil mayo
15 whole wheat ritz crackers
Sunday
10 baked shrimp
1 oz baked salmon
Dinner
Saturday
3 oz of bake salmon
10 baked shrimp
1 cup of broccoli
1 cup of Chinese chicken and broccoli in garlic sauce
10 fried wonton with hot sauce
1/2 cup of white rice
Cup of noodles
I went to the storage place Saturday morning. My storage unit is located above another unit so I have to climb a ladder to get my things in and out of the unit. I got a really workout moving thing around to get the shelving unit out. I also walked about a quarter mile pushing a shopping cart up hill to get home. I then put the unit together.
I tried to workout last night about 1 hour after I ate dinner. That was a bad idea because half way through the workout I started to feel nauseous. Lesson learned, I cannot workout for at least 2-3 hours after a big meal.
Breakfast on Saturday & Sunday
1 1/2 home made waffles
4 strip of maple turkey bacon
coffee with sugar free creamer and 2 packet of Splenda
Lunch:
Saturday
2 oz of canned chicken breast with olive oil mayo
15 whole wheat ritz crackers
Sunday
10 baked shrimp
1 oz baked salmon
Dinner
Saturday
3 oz of bake salmon
10 baked shrimp
1 cup of broccoli
1 cup of Chinese chicken and broccoli in garlic sauce
10 fried wonton with hot sauce
1/2 cup of white rice
Cup of noodles
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Day 11
It's Friday!!! I'm so happy to see the end of the week, I'm tired and want to sleep late.
I'm redecorating my room this weekend. I have a 4 or 5 tier shelving unit in storage and I realize the other day that I would be a better fit in my room than the weak wooden shelf I have now. I can't wait to put it together. I think it will make my room look a lot less cluttered. Yes, I'm a grown woman living in a room. It's a long story why I'm living in a room but this situation is just temporary until I can get my finances together and find a better paying job. Rent is expensive in NYC, a 1 bedroom or studio apartment goes for about $1100 a month and that's not including utilities.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 honey wheat raisin bagel with 1 tbs of low fat cream cheese
1 boiled egg
12 oz of brewed coffee with 2 Splenda packets and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Snack 10:30 am
1 cup of grapes
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad greens with 1 tsp of cheese and raspberries
6 fried calamari rings
1 fried shrimp
1 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
1 cup of vanilla frozen yogurt with 1 tsp of crushed oreos
Snack 4:00 pm
1/4 cup of granola with almond
Chobani greek yogurt orange and vanilla flavor
Dinner 8:00 pm
4 oz baked salmon
8 medium baked shrimp
1 cup of baked broccoli
I'm redecorating my room this weekend. I have a 4 or 5 tier shelving unit in storage and I realize the other day that I would be a better fit in my room than the weak wooden shelf I have now. I can't wait to put it together. I think it will make my room look a lot less cluttered. Yes, I'm a grown woman living in a room. It's a long story why I'm living in a room but this situation is just temporary until I can get my finances together and find a better paying job. Rent is expensive in NYC, a 1 bedroom or studio apartment goes for about $1100 a month and that's not including utilities.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 honey wheat raisin bagel with 1 tbs of low fat cream cheese
1 boiled egg
12 oz of brewed coffee with 2 Splenda packets and 2 tbsp of sugar free creamer
Snack 10:30 am
1 cup of grapes
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad greens with 1 tsp of cheese and raspberries
6 fried calamari rings
1 fried shrimp
1 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
1 cup of vanilla frozen yogurt with 1 tsp of crushed oreos
Snack 4:00 pm
1/4 cup of granola with almond
Chobani greek yogurt orange and vanilla flavor
Dinner 8:00 pm
4 oz baked salmon
8 medium baked shrimp
1 cup of baked broccoli
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Day 10
I did not want to come to work today, but I'm happy that I did. My boss scheduled a team meeting for late in the day. The meetings are scheduled for 1 hour but she goes on and on and on. She loves to beat a dead horse. When I got in this morning I got an e-mail from her asking me to cancel the meeting because she has to leave early for an appointment, hooray!!!!
I feel a little sore this morning from doing the 30 day shred last night. I'm going to do level one for 1 week and them move on to level 2. I weighed myself this morning, I lost 2.4 lbs. hooray!!! I'm going to keep working out every day except Sunday and hopefully by the end of this months I will lose at least 10 lbs. If I lose more my excitement level is going to be through the roof.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1/2 cup of broccoli
1/4 cup of home fries
1/4 cup of imitation crab meat with shrimp
2 strips of bacon
1 hard boiled egg
12 oz coffee with 2 packet of Splenda
Lunch 1 pm
2 cups of salad greens with spinach and olive oil (.5 tbsp)
1/4 cup of wild rice with dried cranberries, beans and nuts
1 oz of grilled chicken
6 fried calamari rings
1.5 oz of grilled salmon
.5 oz of steam sweet plantain
1 steam vegetable dumpling
1 cup of frozen yogurt (new york cheesecake with 1 tsp of crumpled oreo)
Dinner 7:00 pm
3 oz Turkey breast packed in water (Berkley & Jensen) with olive oil mayo
20 Carr's salt and pepper water crackers
2 oz. Utz kettle classics sweet potato chips made with pure peanut oil
Snack
3 serving of air popped popcorn
1 slice of low sodium swiss cheese
2 slices of honey roasted turkey
1 skinny cow milk chocolate dreamy cluster
I realized tonight that if I don't eat something between lunch and dinner I will want to snack after dinner. Tonight I had a bad dinner to begin with and then I continued to spiral out of control. I want to get the night time eating under control.
I struggled through my workout tonight. I did Turbo Fire 30, which I've done several times before. I know all the steps but I just couldn't seem to put 110% into the workout. I think I put about 90% into it. Which is better than nothing at all.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Day 9
I'm so tired of wearing a t-shirt and jeans to work. I want to wear a nice outfit, but I'm just not comfortable in my skin right now to wear something nice. Some days I feel like this weight will never come off because I can't control myself when it comes to snacks. Last night I had a 1/2 serving (.5 oz) of pop chips and then I ate 1 serving (1 oz) of Utz cheese curls. I finished the bag of cheese curls and don't plan on buying more anytime soon.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1/2 cup of broccoli
1/4 cup of home fries
1/4 cup of imitation crab with shrimp
2 strips of bacon
1 hard boiled egg
12 oz coffee with 2 packet of Splenda and 1/2 tbsp of cafe al fresco caramel syrup
Lunch 1 pm
2 cups of salad greens with cilantro, spinach and olive oil (.5 tbsp)
1/4 cup of brown rice with dried cranberries, beans and nuts
1 oz of grilled chicken
6 fried calamari rings
1 oz of grilled salmon
.5 oz of steam sweet plantain
1 steam vegetable dumpling
1 cup of frozen yogurt (new york cheesecake with 1 tsp of crumpled oreo)
I've started telling myself on my way home from work that I have to workout tonight. If I don't do that I won't workout. I'll get in the house, get on the Internet and then I'm done for the night. Last night my son called me during my workout, I had to walk around in a circle so that my muscles didn't get cold. I was really enjoying the workout and I wind up going for an extra set of the HIIT 15.
Dinner 8:00 pm
2 oz Turkey breast packed in water (Berkley & Jensen) with olive oil mayo
17 Carr's salt and pepper water crackers
2 oz. Utz kettle classics sweet potato chips made with pure peanut oil
Snack 10 pm
Skinny Cow milk chocolate dreamy clusters
Tonight I did Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred level 1 as my workout. I made it through the entire video with a few modifications. I can't do a jumping jack because it hurts my knees to do them. During the jumping jacks I ran in place instead. I can't wait until I reach my next goal of 239 so I can buy my heart rate monitor.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1/2 cup of broccoli
1/4 cup of home fries
1/4 cup of imitation crab with shrimp
2 strips of bacon
1 hard boiled egg
12 oz coffee with 2 packet of Splenda and 1/2 tbsp of cafe al fresco caramel syrup
Lunch 1 pm
2 cups of salad greens with cilantro, spinach and olive oil (.5 tbsp)
1/4 cup of brown rice with dried cranberries, beans and nuts
1 oz of grilled chicken
6 fried calamari rings
1 oz of grilled salmon
.5 oz of steam sweet plantain
1 steam vegetable dumpling
1 cup of frozen yogurt (new york cheesecake with 1 tsp of crumpled oreo)
I've started telling myself on my way home from work that I have to workout tonight. If I don't do that I won't workout. I'll get in the house, get on the Internet and then I'm done for the night. Last night my son called me during my workout, I had to walk around in a circle so that my muscles didn't get cold. I was really enjoying the workout and I wind up going for an extra set of the HIIT 15.
Dinner 8:00 pm
2 oz Turkey breast packed in water (Berkley & Jensen) with olive oil mayo
17 Carr's salt and pepper water crackers
2 oz. Utz kettle classics sweet potato chips made with pure peanut oil
Snack 10 pm
Skinny Cow milk chocolate dreamy clusters
Tonight I did Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred level 1 as my workout. I made it through the entire video with a few modifications. I can't do a jumping jack because it hurts my knees to do them. During the jumping jacks I ran in place instead. I can't wait until I reach my next goal of 239 so I can buy my heart rate monitor.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Day 8
I have a real addiction to food. After I eat I keep feeling like I need more. I know I just ate a serving size of food but I still want more. I've tried eating slowly but that doesn't work.
I'm still eating bacon, just can't seem to control that craving.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1/4 cup of steamed broccoli
1/4 cup of imitation crab and shrimp
1/4 cup of home fries
2 strips of bacon
Lunch 1 pm
2 cups of salad greens with spinach and olive oil (1 tbsp)
1/4 cup of wild rice with dried cranberries, bean and nuts
1 oz of beef
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
6 fried calamari rings
.5 oz of roast pork
.5 oz of steam sweet plantain
1 cup of frozen yogurt (chocolate and vanilla with 1 tsp of crumpled oreo)
Snack 3 pm
Jolly Time 100 Calorie Healthy pop kettle corn
Snack 4 pm
Chobani Champions orange vanilla yogurt with 1/4 cup granola
Dinner 8:00 pm
2 oz Turkey breast packed in water (Berkley & Jensen) with olive oil mayo
10 Carr's salt and pepper water crackers
2 cup of salad greens
1 tbsp of dried cranberries
2 tbs of ranch dressing
1 oz. Utz kettle classics sweet potato chips made with pure peanut oil
Workout:
Turbo Fire HIIT 15 min.
I took 17551 steps today, this is high. It's not the highest but it's high. I'm so proud of myself. I think the motivational board and setting a goal of 239 by June 1st is working for me.
I'm still eating bacon, just can't seem to control that craving.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1/4 cup of steamed broccoli
1/4 cup of imitation crab and shrimp
1/4 cup of home fries
2 strips of bacon
Lunch 1 pm
2 cups of salad greens with spinach and olive oil (1 tbsp)
1/4 cup of wild rice with dried cranberries, bean and nuts
1 oz of beef
2.5 oz of grilled chicken
6 fried calamari rings
.5 oz of roast pork
.5 oz of steam sweet plantain
1 cup of frozen yogurt (chocolate and vanilla with 1 tsp of crumpled oreo)
Snack 3 pm
Jolly Time 100 Calorie Healthy pop kettle corn
Snack 4 pm
Chobani Champions orange vanilla yogurt with 1/4 cup granola
Dinner 8:00 pm
2 oz Turkey breast packed in water (Berkley & Jensen) with olive oil mayo
10 Carr's salt and pepper water crackers
2 cup of salad greens
1 tbsp of dried cranberries
2 tbs of ranch dressing
1 oz. Utz kettle classics sweet potato chips made with pure peanut oil
Workout:
Turbo Fire HIIT 15 min.
I took 17551 steps today, this is high. It's not the highest but it's high. I'm so proud of myself. I think the motivational board and setting a goal of 239 by June 1st is working for me.
Monday, April 30, 2012
Slacking Already - Day 6 & 7
I didn't blog yesterday because I didn't have much to say. I was a very quite day of doing things around my room and laundry. I completed my motivational board on Saturday. I put my current goal in bright orange numbers on the board hoping that it will motivate me to workout daily.
I just have to move everyday, stop getting home and sitting in front of the computer. I'm going to set a time limit for myself on the amount of time I can spend online while I'm at home. I don't need to set a time limit for myself at work, I just have to move more.
This morning my co-worker left me a piece of cake from him birthday this weekend. It was a yellow cake with vanilla butter cream frosting and coconut flakes. It was delicious, I ate half after breakfast and the other half after lunch.
Breakfast 9:00 am
2 strips of bacon (smh)
1 hard boiled egg
1/3 cup of steamed broccoli
1/4 cup of imitation crab stick with 1 shrimp
1/4 cup of home fries
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad with 1.5 tbsp of olive oil
3 blackberries
1/4 cup of wild rice with dried cranberries and walnut
1/4 cup of bean salad
Snack 4:00 pm
1 Asian Pear
Dinner 8:00 pm
4 slices of pepperidge farm soft oatmeal bread
2 slices of 60% less fat white american cheese
1 slice of low sodium swiss cheese
2 slices of low sodium roasted turkey
2 slices of honey roasted turkey
1 serving of cheese curls
1 tbsp of olive oil mayo
Worked out tonight, yeah me! I did 45 minutes of Turbo Fire EZ, love this workout dvd.
Painted my nail tonight, used Color Club Almond Nude.
I just have to move everyday, stop getting home and sitting in front of the computer. I'm going to set a time limit for myself on the amount of time I can spend online while I'm at home. I don't need to set a time limit for myself at work, I just have to move more.
This morning my co-worker left me a piece of cake from him birthday this weekend. It was a yellow cake with vanilla butter cream frosting and coconut flakes. It was delicious, I ate half after breakfast and the other half after lunch.
Breakfast 9:00 am
2 strips of bacon (smh)
1 hard boiled egg
1/3 cup of steamed broccoli
1/4 cup of imitation crab stick with 1 shrimp
1/4 cup of home fries
Lunch 1:00 pm
3 cups of salad with 1.5 tbsp of olive oil
3 blackberries
1/4 cup of wild rice with dried cranberries and walnut
1/4 cup of bean salad
Snack 4:00 pm
1 Asian Pear
Dinner 8:00 pm
4 slices of pepperidge farm soft oatmeal bread
2 slices of 60% less fat white american cheese
1 slice of low sodium swiss cheese
2 slices of low sodium roasted turkey
2 slices of honey roasted turkey
1 serving of cheese curls
1 tbsp of olive oil mayo
Worked out tonight, yeah me! I did 45 minutes of Turbo Fire EZ, love this workout dvd.
Painted my nail tonight, used Color Club Almond Nude.
Starting a new day - Day 5
I had a visit today with my son. He at so much junk food, the vending machines should have some healthy options. You're not allowed to bring outside food into the visiting area.
Breakfast 8:00 am
Apple fritter, coffee with friendly sugar free creamer, 2 packet of splenda
Midday meal 1 pm
1 bag of chips, 2 white castle cheeseburgers, 1/2 bag of pretzels
Dinner 8 pm
2 oz sliced turkey, 2 slices of swiss cheese, 1 slice of Uno's pizza
1 serving of quaker cheddar rice cakes, 1 serving of swedish fish
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Day 4
I didn't give this post a title because I couldn't think of one. Yesterday was just so stressful, I never realized that I'm an emotional eater until last night. I was having withdrawals from the internet and this caused me to spiral out of control. I ate 5 servings of some sort of chips. That is just not right. Oh well, today is a new day and a new start.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 hard boiled egg, 1 honey wheat raisin bagel with 1.5 tbsp of fat free cream cheese and 1 tbsp of grape jelly
12 oz brewed coffee with 2 tbsp of friendly sugar free vanilla creamer, 1 tbsp cafe al fresco vanilla gourmet syrup, 1 packet of splenda
Snack:
None
Lunch 1:30 pm
1 cup of fried rice (shrimp and veggie)
2 fried wingettes
2 fried shrimp
4 fried calamari rings
2 oz broiled salmon
1 cup of sauteed broccoli
1 cup of yogurt (vanilla and cookies and cream)
1 white chocolate and macadamia nut
Dinner 7:00 pm
McDonald's medium fries, hamburger, 4 piece mcnuggets with sweet chili sauce
1 glazed donut, 1 handful of swedish fish, 1 serving of quaker cheddar rice cakes
Out of control eating. It was serious today, I'm going through something. No sure if it's depression or just loneliness. Either way I need to get out of this funk and fast, before I start gaining weight.
I'm going to make a vision board. I hope it helps get me out of this funk that I'm in.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 hard boiled egg, 1 honey wheat raisin bagel with 1.5 tbsp of fat free cream cheese and 1 tbsp of grape jelly
12 oz brewed coffee with 2 tbsp of friendly sugar free vanilla creamer, 1 tbsp cafe al fresco vanilla gourmet syrup, 1 packet of splenda
Snack:
None
Lunch 1:30 pm
1 cup of fried rice (shrimp and veggie)
2 fried wingettes
2 fried shrimp
4 fried calamari rings
2 oz broiled salmon
1 cup of sauteed broccoli
1 cup of yogurt (vanilla and cookies and cream)
1 white chocolate and macadamia nut
Dinner 7:00 pm
McDonald's medium fries, hamburger, 4 piece mcnuggets with sweet chili sauce
1 glazed donut, 1 handful of swedish fish, 1 serving of quaker cheddar rice cakes
Out of control eating. It was serious today, I'm going through something. No sure if it's depression or just loneliness. Either way I need to get out of this funk and fast, before I start gaining weight.
I'm going to make a vision board. I hope it helps get me out of this funk that I'm in.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Just another day - Day 3
I've added a new goal, stop eating bacon. I love bacon, I think I'm addicted to bacon. I'm going to not have bacon everyday, for now I'm planning to have it maybe 3 days a week the most. The sodium and fat in bacon is ridiculous.
I didn't workout yesterday and I don't have a good reason why. I'm not going to make any excuses as to why I didn't workout. I was just being lazy.
Breakfast: 9:30 am
1 hard boiled egg, 1 whole wheat raisin bagel, 1.5 tbsp of low-fat cream cheese
coffee with 1 packet of splenda, 1.5 tbsp of friendly's sugar free creamer and 1 tbsp of cafe al fresco vanilla gourmet syrup
Snack: 11:00 am
1 cup of seedless black grapes
Lunch:
2 cup of salad with 1 tbsp of oil oil
2 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
4 ring of fried calamari
1/4 of wild rice with beans
Cake batter and vanilla yogurt (1 cup)
Snack: 3:00 pm
1 oatmeal cookie (company bought us snacks)
Dinner: 8:00 pm
Buttered roll (1 tbsp yogurt butter)
Wise Honey BBQ potato chips (2 servings)
Lam's Plantain Strips (2.5 servings)
I was having a good day. I had all intentions of working out tonight, I got home and it all went to hell. My internet service was not working. I rent a room and the internet was suppose to be provided by the owner. Apparently he decided not to provide this service any more but never informed the tenants. I had to use my laptop wi-fi to find internet service. This really sucks. I called the neighborhood cable provider and they will be out on Sunday to install the service. Now I have an additional bill, this really sucks.
After all that I didn't workout because I was not feeling it. I was depressed, so I ate a bag of potato chips and a bag of plantain chips and called it a night. I'll try again with the workout.
I didn't workout yesterday and I don't have a good reason why. I'm not going to make any excuses as to why I didn't workout. I was just being lazy.
Breakfast: 9:30 am
1 hard boiled egg, 1 whole wheat raisin bagel, 1.5 tbsp of low-fat cream cheese
coffee with 1 packet of splenda, 1.5 tbsp of friendly's sugar free creamer and 1 tbsp of cafe al fresco vanilla gourmet syrup
Snack: 11:00 am
1 cup of seedless black grapes
Lunch:
2 cup of salad with 1 tbsp of oil oil
2 oz of grilled chicken
1 oz of grilled salmon
4 ring of fried calamari
1/4 of wild rice with beans
Cake batter and vanilla yogurt (1 cup)
Snack: 3:00 pm
1 oatmeal cookie (company bought us snacks)
Dinner: 8:00 pm
Buttered roll (1 tbsp yogurt butter)
Wise Honey BBQ potato chips (2 servings)
Lam's Plantain Strips (2.5 servings)
I was having a good day. I had all intentions of working out tonight, I got home and it all went to hell. My internet service was not working. I rent a room and the internet was suppose to be provided by the owner. Apparently he decided not to provide this service any more but never informed the tenants. I had to use my laptop wi-fi to find internet service. This really sucks. I called the neighborhood cable provider and they will be out on Sunday to install the service. Now I have an additional bill, this really sucks.
After all that I didn't workout because I was not feeling it. I was depressed, so I ate a bag of potato chips and a bag of plantain chips and called it a night. I'll try again with the workout.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Setting A Goal - Day 2
My goal is to be able to go into any clothing store and buy any outfit that I think looks good. Currently I wear some sort of t-shirt and jeans every day to work. I hate the clothes in the plus size stores. They have no shape or shaped to fit women with big booty and lots of hips. Who ever designs plus size clothing think all plus size women have big giant butts. I don't have any booty or hips. I don't own a dress that I can wear to work.
Another goal is to get out of the 240's. I took me almost 9 months to get into the 240's, I don't want to take another 9 months to get out of the 240's. If I don't exercise daily I won't make this goal anytime soon.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 Egg veggie omelette with spinach, peppers and ham
1/2 cup of steamed broccoli
1.5 strips of bacon (I need to stop eating this)
12 oz coffee with friendly sugar free creamer and 1 splenda packet
1 tbsp Cafe al Fresco Vanilla Gourmet Syrup
Lunch 1:00 pm
2.5 cup of salad greens
3 fried calamari
2 oz grilled chicken
1 oz roasted turkey
1/4 cup of blackberries
1 tbsp of olive oil
Snack 3:30pm
Whole food breakfast bars
Dinner: 8:00pm
Spicy noodle soup
2 grill cheese sandwiches with tomato
1/2 cup roasted salted peanuts
Today was a good day. I'm feeling happy, life is strange and you just have to go with it.
I drank about 72 ounces of water today. I use Mio to help me drink more water, I only add enough to flavor the water.
Another goal is to get out of the 240's. I took me almost 9 months to get into the 240's, I don't want to take another 9 months to get out of the 240's. If I don't exercise daily I won't make this goal anytime soon.
Breakfast 9:00 am
1 Egg veggie omelette with spinach, peppers and ham
1/2 cup of steamed broccoli
1.5 strips of bacon (I need to stop eating this)
12 oz coffee with friendly sugar free creamer and 1 splenda packet
1 tbsp Cafe al Fresco Vanilla Gourmet Syrup
Lunch 1:00 pm
2.5 cup of salad greens
3 fried calamari
2 oz grilled chicken
1 oz roasted turkey
1/4 cup of blackberries
1 tbsp of olive oil
Snack 3:30pm
Whole food breakfast bars
Dinner: 8:00pm
Spicy noodle soup
2 grill cheese sandwiches with tomato
1/2 cup roasted salted peanuts
Today was a good day. I'm feeling happy, life is strange and you just have to go with it.
I drank about 72 ounces of water today. I use Mio to help me drink more water, I only add enough to flavor the water.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Still Standing - Day 1 again
I'm still standing. Some days are harder than others but today I'm feeling really down. Sometimes life has to hurt for us to grow stronger. I pray for peace in my life.
I'm currently the same weight I was on 8/13/11 (249.6). That's a little sad. I've completely stopped working out. I keep pushing on, refusing to fall back into my old eating habits. I've cut down on the amount of simple carbs I have daily.
My plan is to go back to gym today and start slowly. I'm going to do at least 30 minutes on the elliptical machine, if I'm feeling up to it pushing for 45 min. I'm going to create a workout schedule using my workout DVDs. I also want to wake up early to do the Turbo Jam DVD.
Breakfast: 9:00 am
1 whole wheat bagel (simple carb)
1 egg (scrambled)
2 strips of bacon
12 oz coffee
1.5 tbsp Friendly's fat free vanilla creamer
1 tbsp Cafe al Fresco vanilla gourmet syrups
1 packet of Splenda
Snack: 11:00 am
1/2 cup watermelon chunks
1/2 cup cantelope chunks
1/2 cup black seedless grapes
Lunch: 1:00 pm
2 cups of salad greens
1/4 cup of whole grains
1/4 bean & nuts salad
5 fried calamari
1 oz general tso's chicken
1.5 oz grilled chicken
Snack: 2:00 pm & 4:00 pm
Skinny Cow milk chocolate dreamy clusters (2:00 pm)
Jell-o mousse temptations caramel
1 light string cheese
Dinner: 8:00 pm
2 Cups of Turkey Lentils soup with peppers, corn, kidney beans, olives
2 grill cheese sandwich on multi-grain bread and 2% cheese with tomato slices
Walked 3 miles using Leslie Sansone's DVD
End of another day. Wash and repeat again tomorrow.
I'm currently the same weight I was on 8/13/11 (249.6). That's a little sad. I've completely stopped working out. I keep pushing on, refusing to fall back into my old eating habits. I've cut down on the amount of simple carbs I have daily.
My plan is to go back to gym today and start slowly. I'm going to do at least 30 minutes on the elliptical machine, if I'm feeling up to it pushing for 45 min. I'm going to create a workout schedule using my workout DVDs. I also want to wake up early to do the Turbo Jam DVD.
Breakfast: 9:00 am
1 whole wheat bagel (simple carb)
1 egg (scrambled)
2 strips of bacon
12 oz coffee
1.5 tbsp Friendly's fat free vanilla creamer
1 tbsp Cafe al Fresco vanilla gourmet syrups
1 packet of Splenda
Snack: 11:00 am
1/2 cup watermelon chunks
1/2 cup cantelope chunks
1/2 cup black seedless grapes
Lunch: 1:00 pm
2 cups of salad greens
1/4 cup of whole grains
1/4 bean & nuts salad
5 fried calamari
1 oz general tso's chicken
1.5 oz grilled chicken
Snack: 2:00 pm & 4:00 pm
Skinny Cow milk chocolate dreamy clusters (2:00 pm)
Jell-o mousse temptations caramel
1 light string cheese
Dinner: 8:00 pm
2 Cups of Turkey Lentils soup with peppers, corn, kidney beans, olives
2 grill cheese sandwich on multi-grain bread and 2% cheese with tomato slices
Walked 3 miles using Leslie Sansone's DVD
End of another day. Wash and repeat again tomorrow.
Life Changes
My life has changed so much in the past 6 months. I'm surprise that I'm still standing. There are days where I just want to lay it down and never wake up, but I know I must keep push on.
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