Let's try this again

Today is Monday, July 9th and I'm experiencing deja vu.  I've been here before and every other time the outcome has been the same.  I start out at full speed and I'm all into it.  Then something happens in my life and I have to push my goals to the side to take care of someone else (mainly my son).  I just wish I could put me first and not worry about anyone else.  I also wish I could stick with something longer than 30 days.

I try to set goals but I never achieve them.  My life is always being turned upside down by something that I have not control over.  Right now I'm in the process of looking for a new job because my current job is causing me stress.  It's sending me into a sad depression and so I've decided to put all my effort into find a new job. 

I'm also dealing with my son's current situation.  He will be incarcerated for the next 3 1/2 years, he goes before the parol board in 2015.  This situation has taught me to never say never.  My son is very stubborn and likes to learn things the hard way.  He doesn't realize that his actions not only hurt him but they hurt the people closest to him, but that's a whole other post.  With all these stresses in my life it's no wonder I can't stay on track.

So, I'm trying this again.  I refuse to give up, even thought there are days when I say I'm done.  On those days I eat what ever I want and don't regret it.  The only plus is that I haven't gained back the weight that I have lost so far.  I've also started to walk more.  The other day I walked a total of 10 miles.    It was not from a continuous walk.