Changes and Goals

Today is Monday, July 16th.  I got on the scale this morning and I had a gain.  It was a large gain, I think this was what I needed to kick myself back into losing weight.  Right now I'm depressed.  I always said as long as I don't gain back the weight I've lost so far then I'm fine.

My food goals for this week is to eat more fruits and veggies, drink lots of water and NO fast food. I'm going to try my hardest to eat more home cooked meals and have lunch at the salad bar.  There are lots of healthy options at the salad bars around the area where I work so I don't have any excuse as to why I can't eat healthy.

My workout goals for this week is to workout at least 3 times.  Today I'm going to do the Turbo Jam 30 minute workout because I don't think I can handle more than that.

This morning I weighted in at 262, so I'm back in the 260's when just about 2 months ago I was in the 240's.

Today is Tuesday, July 10th and I've done a lot of walking in the past 3 days.  On Saturday I walked over 10 miles.  Yesterday and the day before I walked over 5 miles.  I've started walking from where I live to the subway and I've cut my time from 15 minutes to 10 mins.  It's about 1/4 mile from where I live to the subway.  If only I could dedicate myself to working out on a daily basis they way I'm dedicated to walking.

Let's try this again

Today is Monday, July 9th and I'm experiencing deja vu.  I've been here before and every other time the outcome has been the same.  I start out at full speed and I'm all into it.  Then something happens in my life and I have to push my goals to the side to take care of someone else (mainly my son).  I just wish I could put me first and not worry about anyone else.  I also wish I could stick with something longer than 30 days.

I try to set goals but I never achieve them.  My life is always being turned upside down by something that I have not control over.  Right now I'm in the process of looking for a new job because my current job is causing me stress.  It's sending me into a sad depression and so I've decided to put all my effort into find a new job. 

I'm also dealing with my son's current situation.  He will be incarcerated for the next 3 1/2 years, he goes before the parol board in 2015.  This situation has taught me to never say never.  My son is very stubborn and likes to learn things the hard way.  He doesn't realize that his actions not only hurt him but they hurt the people closest to him, but that's a whole other post.  With all these stresses in my life it's no wonder I can't stay on track.

So, I'm trying this again.  I refuse to give up, even thought there are days when I say I'm done.  On those days I eat what ever I want and don't regret it.  The only plus is that I haven't gained back the weight that I have lost so far.  I've also started to walk more.  The other day I walked a total of 10 miles.    It was not from a continuous walk.